Falling Apart Is Coming Together
The last 6 years have been monumental for me.
Who I was, and everything that I was living prior to 2015, has since fallen apart — sometimes in horrifying, technicolor fashion.
I nearly died giving birth to my son.
I became a first-time mom just before my 41st birthday.
I struggled through grueling health issues while caring for a newborn, infant and toddler.
I chose to focus on and fast-track my personal and spiritual development, which is so.not.easy.
I went through a painful and devastating divorce after 10+ years of marriage.
I learned how to be a single mother — something I was 1000% petrified of becoming.
I brought an end to countless relationships that were toxic and harmful.
I shifted my professional focus and work.
I learned how to see myself, my lovability, and my worth in an entirely new way.
I stepped into a new realm of self-trust and inner knowing.
I called in a powerful and more aligned level of support for myself and my son.
I navigated more than a year of an isolating global pandemic by myself, with a young child.
I said ‘yes’ to my creative longings — something I’ve resisted for most of my adult life.
I met the challenge of crisis management amidst family dynamics when my dad recently had a stroke.
I expanded to new heights and depths of heartbreak and ecstasy as I felt it all — also so.not.easy.
I believe that everything had to fall apart so that it could come back together in a way that is aligned, in integrity, and truly “right” for me. I also believe that this “falling apart” is something that is happening in everyone’s life right now, to varying degrees in and various ways.
This process of falling and coming apart is messy. Scary. Painful. Chaotic. And freakin’ hard.
Instead of believing that whatever was happening in my life was happening to me, I believe it’s all being perfectly choreographed for me — even if it didn’t look or feel that way at the time.
I recently spent some time in a virtual community of women, and from that collective space I could see more clearly how much I’ve held back from sharing all that I’ve been navigating, all that’s been required of me from this process I’ve been in, and how much old programming has been in the driver’s seat of my business, telling me I have to show up here as the expert, the put-together-know-it-all, with an ideal life and a supreme mastery of everything in it.
What I know now is that life is never picture-perfect or ideal. We never arrive at some magical place where things never go sideways, and challenges never arise. And we simply can’t have all the answers or know it all by ourselves.
Instead, we get to become more and more masterful at meeting life on life’s terms and feeling it all.
We get to learn how to honor ourselves on every level as we navigate difficulty and change.
We get to learn, grow, and become more of who we really are.
And if we’re lucky, we get to do all of this in the company of other women who have and are still navigating this journey — so that we can share, cooperate, collaborate, and uplift each other all along the way.
Without these past 6 years, I would not be the woman I am today. I would not trust myself the way I do. I would not know what I am capable of. I would have no clear knowledge of how strong, resilient, and magical I truly am.
After all I’ve seen and felt and been through, I am coming together in a different and wonderful way. My identity and priorities have shifted, and my life is unfolding in new directions.
My entire vibration and being are emanating something… fresh, vibrant, colorful, rich, aligned, and new.
This process I’m in is not complete or tidy or wrapped in a neat and pretty bow — and it probably never will be. I can’t even tell you right now what things are going to look like moving forward from here because things are still very much in motion.
But I can tell you that you will be hearing new and different things from me — things that are a culmination of the journey I’ve walked, the experiences I’ve had, and the wisdom I’ve collected along the way.
I will be sharing new opportunities with you. All that I’ve seen, felt, learned, and lived is being brought together in ways I couldn’t have seen or predicted before.
Things are coming together in my life and my work that will benefit you. And that feels very, very, very exciting and rewarding to me!
As everything in all our lives continues to shift and change in front of our eyes, inside of our bodies and all around us, I want you to know there is still so much magic to be lived.
I want you to know that I am here.
I see you.
I am you.
I honor you.
I love you.
And from a new place of wholeness and truth, I stand for you, your joy, and all the life you get to live.
Lots of love,
PS: I love hearing from you! How did this message land for you? What, if anything, are you taking away from it? And what do you crave and long for most in your life right now?
Simply hit reply and let me know. xx
Originally published on https://aliciamorrow.com/